you to pick me, instead of them. i feel like i’m always put on hold so you can spend more time with them. for the past few months, it’s been about everyone else. as much as i love you, and them, i feel neglected sometimes.
I don’t feel like there is a reason to be blogging about my life when there is just so much going on everyday. I know there are people who follow others for content, and I really haven’t created anything original lately, but I just don’t have the want or need to blog about my life other then things I’ve seen of interest and just short phrases. Why? Because I feel like life right now is my expression. A blog is to express feelings, but with life right now, I express how I feel everyday with the many people I share my days with. College definitely has changed a lot. Not for the worse, but definitely for the best. I have no major complaints atm. Sure, there are certain things that are flying through my head, but nothing worth blogging.
(current song playing, Runaway - Kanye West)
I thought I would blog about something on this early Sunday morning though. Last night was a night. A very interesting night. A first for me, but still worth it. Everyone seemed to be having a great time. I slept on the ground though last night, and it was COLD! Darn these windows in my room. lol. Sitting here, on Tumblr, listening to music with my headphones while @HelloMayuko is asleep in my bed, and my suite still practically asleep. The suite is usually never quiet. But then again, this is super early. I couldn’t really sleep well but it’s all good. I like these relaxing days. Also, I miss my big bunny @kphams! I hope you are having an amazing time back home and I will see you soon =)
(current song playing, Say(all I need) - One Republic)
I guess if there is one thing to complain about is my work ethics. My effort in school right now has been showing through my grades. I’ve been doing C avg…if not worse. I gotta step my game up. Although this Sunday morning and Halloween day should be a day to relax and have fun, I will be working for the majority of the day. I have to finish my Poli Sci book by tomorrow, english paper by Tuesday, CSE midterm Tuesday, and end it with my Poli Sci midterm Wednesday. I’ve been slacking this whole weekend still regardless….(sigh). I need self control. ahaha.
(current song playing, Easy - Lionel Richie)
As for now, Im’ma shower. I’m cold. Lol, chilly Sunday morning here in La Jolla. For all my friends not here with me, I love you guys =) I hope to see you all soon this Thanksgiving or even soon. See ya everyone. Out.
It made me realize 3 things. How much I miss my friends and family. How much I miss my bed. And how much I miss SD. The fuck…right? Actually, I’m not surprised. I have my friends family in SD who make everything great.
Stick true to your roots. Don’t be something your not. Look for what is right in front of you as we all can get lost. Have a passion for what you want. Don’t think you are anything less then capable. Fight for what and who you love. Love and be loved. Speak up but don’t argue. Smile even when things get hard. Think for the better not the worse. Even though you may fail, you will succeed. Don’t blame but except your faults. Love your faults and learn from them.
Dear @AnthonyCQ. I’m going to defend you because I agree with the principle of what you had to say.
I hate activist people that believe that all of the world’s problems can be solved through “awareness.” Awareness doesn’t fix anything, it just makes the person aware. The great thing about raising awareness is that you cannot fail at it either. You tell someone gay bullying is wrong, well now they’re aware. Mission accomplished! This is what makes “awareness” so attractive to activist people. You can raise “awareness” by doing the simplest things, in this case, wearing a purple shirt.
Raising awareness is also stupid because once you raise awareness to an acceptable, arbitrary level, you’re relinquished of all responsibility and can transfer the burden of the problem to the person whose awareness you just raised. They likely don’t want to deal with it either, so they’ll just raise some more awareness until the world ends up with a vicious cycle of awareness and an unaffected underlying problem.
How does this relate to wearing purple shirts tomorrow, specifically? Well for one, wearing a certain color is not doing anything. Nothing is changing. Everyone’s going to wear purple shirts tomorrow because it’s become fashionable for straight people to support gay issues, then they’re going to go to class and realize that there’s a pop quiz or their boss is going to ask them to stay late and they’re going to shout “OMG that’s so gay!” despite the fact that they’re dressed head to toe in purple.
Instead of wearing a damn color, make a real difference and change your stupid, homophobic habits.